PostPartumRelief

         -___________- Yes, -________-. I'm literally like that right now. This is after the realization that I still have work to do.
         So, normally on Saturday, I'm on chore duty. However, I felt soooooooooo lazy and so I slept for a good hour and a half, to realize that it's 3:30pm. Then, I decided to just do them tomorrow. Now my back, shoulders and arms are hurting from sleeping on the couch DDDDDD;
         After I felt that relief of not having to do chores, I felt like I could just game all day. But, nooooooooo. I have homework to do -_____- OMGGGG -rips eyeballs out-
        Now, I'm stuck here, playing my clarinet and getting frustrated because my breathing has become soo terrible and I can not reach my notes. ON TOP OF THAT, I have to play a final piece that is hella fast ._.
        I still have to study for English and Science as well. WWHHHHYYYYY!?!?!?!
        I feel like I need help. Lately, I've been trying to finish all of my assignments in a short time frame, yet I still get distracted by facebook posts and youtube videos DDD;. That takes up some time and therefore, I can't help my mom make dinner anymore or even wash the dishes! I feel sooo guilty because she has to do ALL OF IT. If you're wondering about my dad helping out, don't even bother with him. He claims he helps by grocery shopping.(Yeah, sometimes for the most unnecessary things)
       Sorry for my grumpy post but I just felt like I needed a break and so I came here. Oh and I didn't go running last weekend at all. It didn't feel too different but according to the way my body is reacting right now, it would probably be better if I did run on the weekends. That's the least I could do. It's just that times like the end of the school year, since I have soo little freetime, it's much easier for me to do something fun by going on the computer than walking 3 blocks to a track. Stupid convenient technology -.-
       The only thing that is getting me through this is what I am saying to myself, "I'll survive this, like I always do".  So far, it's working :D Hope you guys aren't stressing out too much. If so, use my saying ;P Have a nice day~

Bloomed-> Blooming~
-Melanie 

Athletic Banquet + End of the Year

         Hello, it's Sunday! I found that I had some time since I just finished, except for editing, my music project!! Finally! I got pretty frustrated on some parts but now it's finally over. Speaking of something that is over: the Athletic Banquet.
        I went with one of my okay/good friends. The whole night was okay. The venue was for weddings, so I admired that. The food was served pretty quickly and was average. There was salad, chicken, meat balls, tortellini with alfredo sauce, bread, potatos and dry vegetables. ._.
       After that, it took another 3 hours to announce the awards. And no, I did not get an award DDD; But what do you expect? I joined 1 team, and it isn't even one of those popular ones like basketball or football or something. Besides, I had like 25 people on my team o.o (I still can't get over the fact that, WE ONLY NEEDED 14 PLAYERS!). So, yeah. My parents got very pissed at me because supposedly I made them wait for 3 hours outside the venue...soo..yeah.
        Currently, I am working on 3 culminatings. English: Sonnet. Science: Wiring a "house". Band: Song Analysis Presentation. It's pretty stressful for me, which you would notice by my appearance since I have a new mass of pimples (n).
         I've also been having some actual breakouts though. On a more serious note, I will probably talk more about this when I have time, since I don't at the moment.
         The countdown is on: 2 weeks till exams. I have one on the 15th and the other on the 18th. What my plan is, is to finish up my culminatings by Tuesday. Then follow up with presentations. So far, I only know that I have my Band project presentation on Wednesday. But, I do know that I could be presenting my English Project on either Wednesday, Thursday or Friday and my Science project on Thursday or Friday.
        I've contemplated on whether I should say what I'm about to say because, of course, knowing my "ego", if you can even call it that, since I don't express it publicly, I don't like to mention anything that doesn't make me feel good. However, I feel like I need to because it is a part of me.
        About a week ago, I handed in an Essay, just like the other students in my English class did. I was very proud because I spent more than 7 hours on it (outline, rough copy, editing, final copy).
        The thing about me is that I'm very non-optimistic. For example, if there is a presentation date within a few days, I'd automatically think and start to prepare for the first day. It's probably because it happened to me before,which makes me think this way.
        Back to that story, I WAS PROUD OF MY WORK. FOR ONCE. You know, sometimes I get good marks on projects that I hate or don't feel anything towards and not as good ones on projects that I am proud of. So, I got my essay back from my English teacher and she told me my mark : C. Just think about how I"d feel. (This eventually leads to my breakout problem that I had stated above) She told me that she'd give me another opportunity to improve this mark if I submit an essay in by Thursday. I've read her comments and started to think about improvements.
        But, I just hate that the ONE BIG THING that I was actually PROUD of, was marked a C. My first thought towards my teacher is, I dislike you because of that mark. Then I thought about the comments she wrote and the opportunity she gave me. However, I did ask myself: Does this mark lessen the value it has towards me? Do I hate it now?
         I've noticed that sometimes, my marks of a course determines whether I like a subject or not. I need to think more about how I feel, for once.(<- Post about that too, coming soon.)

Bloomed-> Blooming~
-Melanie