Too Dark DDDD;

          Lucky for you this weekend, I'm here :D This will hopefully be a short post though because I have quite a bit of homework. I have a feeling that the teachers are pushing assignments on us so that they can mark it before the end of the month and include it in our term report card -.-...
          Anyways, today I will be talking about how dark it is in the morning.
         So, I occasionally have basketball practices in the morning at 7am. Although just recently have we been having it them more often in the morning. DO YOU KNOW HOW DARK IT IS AT 6:55AM IN THE MORNING?!?!?
         DARK.
         When I walk outside, it feels like it's like 10pm at night -.- My eyes take long to cope with the darkness, I can't see anything very well, the street lamps are still on, etc. It freaks me out that I walk on the street. I'm DEATHLY afraid of being murdered or stabbed or dying for that matter. I get anxiety from it the most when I'm in dark places. I become very paranoid about how they will approach me and therefore, I refuse to walk on sidewalks. What if they're hiding behind a bush? Or next to a house?
         Even walking on the street freaks me out because some street lamps aren't on and NO ONE is outside. I don't live on those big streets with passing cars and traffic lights, so it gets quiet at times. But I'm just surprised that no adults go to work at 7am anymore -.-....I remember my dad doing that all the time!
         Now, whenever I'm walking, I hope to see some person or some car pass by to relieve my anxiety, but at the same time, I have to ask: Is this person going to kill me?
         I know. I'm a maniac.
         Even at night, I don't like it being too dark because I can't see around me. I like to know all about my surroundings. Like what is making that noise, or, what is lighting up. That kind of thing.
         I know I'm complaining about it being dark at 7am but I feel even worse for those who have to travel to school. This means waking up earlier and leaving your house earlier, WHICH EQUALS = DARKER. Darkness, I fear you....so please light up ^.^
         Like my joke? xD Anywho, I'm going to go now. Hopefully tomorrow, when I take a break from reading all day, I will write a post for Wednesday. But once again, no guarentees! Toodles~
         Okay, wait. I am not ending this post of with toodles....
         LAT.ER.

Bloomed -> Blooming~
-Melanie

Drawing The Line + Basketball

          Helloooo. It is almost the end of the week for you guys. (: Keep going.
          Okay, enough of that. Let's get down to business: Drawing the line. If you don't know already, I like working with solid lines. It is either yes or no. Black or white. This or that. Makes sense as to why I like math rather than English. So, the question is: how do you draw the line with your friends?
          Just on Friday, I had an issue like that one occur and I feel like I was a little more irritated in dealing with it than I could've been. What happened was that one of my friends had asked to "look"(by that she meant copying)at some of my notes for Science, while we were in Math class. (We had Science next and he was checking our notes).
         I retaliated to the thought of it immediately.
         The two things that immediately set me off are: Copying and Lying. If you do either of those to me, I will rage on you.
          (Omg...I just got a memory of this coward in my science class who couldn't do something in his experiment that Hannah and I did and attempted to take our sheets with the recorded observations from us. First, he tried to take the sheet, which we immediately took back. Next, he tried to take a picture of it. THEN, he had the audacity to try to record a video of the information on the sheet (3 TIMES!) before my hand could cover the information in time. I got soooo pissed off that I was literally like throwing his hand away and yelling. I STILL hate him to this day.... I didn't tell the teacher because the assignment wasn't even going to be collected but the actions. KJBDSGKJBDASKJGESNG)
        Anyways, I started off by asking her why she needed my science notes, after she asks for them. She replied with, He's checking the notes today. Then I asked her if she were away a certain day that the notes were taken and she replied no. This immediately alarmed me because I'm like WTF? Then why do you need it?
        I get very protective over my possessions and the things that I do. So the fact that she had the notes but  still wanted to copy mine down was outrageous. She said that she forgot her notes at home and our science teacher was checking them today,so she needed it. And so I gave them to her.
        We are semi-close friends, but still. I think we can both agree that the whole situation didn't have to be as big as a deal as it was. I even told her that even when I give my notes to someone who was away a certain day, I am still hesitant to do it, but I still give it to them because of the inevitable circumstance: They weren't here.
        And then, another semi-close friend came over and did the same thing. After all of that commotion, I just handed it to her and she left with it, satisfied. I guess I just feel like I'm being taken advantage of. Me and you had the same opportunity to copy down the notes on the board and record the things the teacher said and what not, so why must you know what my notes say? I know that I could be feeling flattered to know that my notes are great, but at the same time, they are my notes.
        Anyways, aside from that, I want to talk about my basketball game. It wasn't exactly a game that I had particularly fun with. The team was number one in our division made up of 6 schools. I think I mentioned 2 or 3 posts before, that this team scored an average of 50 points in every game. This scared me.
        As the game started, the team had already scored 10 points and the first quarter wasn't even over. We were trailing by 8. They were very fast and quite good shooters. The majority of their points were made through lay ups.
        I got put on for a part of the 2nd quarter to defend this girl who was good at driving. I think I did pretty well :3 It was half time and we were probably down by a good 10 points or so. The pace of the game was very fast. My coach noticed that they tried to get the ball down as fast as possible to score so that we wouldn't get back in time to block them. Our coach wanted us to do the same and forget everything that we ever learned. -_____-
         I got VERY tired, VERY fast. I can't even imagine how bad it was for the girl on my team who was put on for the entire game.
        I stayed on for the entire 3rd quarter and part of the 4th. A lot of the players on our bench didn't get to play at all, so my coach put them all on like 2 minutes before it ended at which time, we were trailing by 20 or so points. The game ended with a score of 17 - 39, which was not bad considering that most teams who faced them scored around a little less than 20 points. I was VERY happy to see that they didn't even reach the 40 point mark though :DDD
       However, what was quite upsetting was that my coach didn't even put have one point guard on the court for half of the game. There are 5 of them on our team, which makes up 1/3 of the team, and NONE of them were on. I'm guessing she needed good defense and points scored. It was rough on the court but we finished well. Our next game is next Tuesday against a school that is definitely around our level and totally beatable material ;) Hopefully, I'll have a post up on the weekend but if not, it'll probably be some other weekend. BYEEEEE

Bloomed -> Blooming~
-Melanie

Leisure Activities

          LONG WEEKEND.
          -claps like a retarded seal-  :3
         I don't think this applies for Americans because I know that their Thanksgiving is in mid-November, or something close to that but, in Canada, our Thanksgiving is tomorrow. I may sound stoked but it's not too much out of the ordinary for me. I feel like the whole point of Thanksgiving is lost behind the turkey. I, and probably many others, have referred to it as Turkey Day before. I wonder why the turkey was used to symbolize thanks....Was it because of harvesting season? O-o
         Anyways, Happy Thanksgiving to everyone :D
         On to the topic: Leisure Activities. I just thought about it right on the spot when I  was thinking about what to write because I didn't want to work on my Short Story yet, so I'm writing a blog post :D I think by doing something semi-productive, it makes me feel better about not doing something productive...even though writing a blog post is probably not as important xP
         I often get asked by Kayla, whom I am still pretty close to, what I do during my spare time. She, and probably everyone else thinks that I do my homework and study every single day, every minute of the time. Well, sorry to break it to you, but I don't.
         To be honest, I wonder about that myself too. When approached with this question, I was literally speechless and I asked myself: What do I do during my spare time?
         I noticed that time for me has sped up soo much more since school has started. It is already October. :OOO WHATT?
         On some school days, my schedule gets packed and I'm doing my homework and studying pretty much any other time that I get, which is probably aside from eating, sleeping and taking a shower. That is when I'm drained of energy and before I know it, I'm in bed.
         However, my days aren't always that busy. I tend to waste, if you can even call it that, alot of it. Just on Friday when I came home, I knew that I had homework but I'd wait for another 2 hours to start some of it. Did I? Somewhat. I ended up starting it a little later, but got it done. Those 2 or so hours got spent on Facebook, Youtube, Hotmail, etc. Youtube being the ultimate time waster. It's soo easy to just click on video after video, GRRRR.
        I have a very odd selection of people that I subscribe to. I subscribe to fashion gurus, make-up gurus, hairstyling gurus, you get the idea. But to be honest, I don't actually watch all of their videos now. I just click on one occasionally, if it looks interesting.
        And then I subscribe to vloggers. I actually don't get bored of them too often, unless they're ridiculously  long and a majority of it is of something that does not arouse my interests. I also subscribe to entertainers who make skits. (SIDE NOTE: If you haven't seen Kevjumba's video, "My New Son Jeremy Lin", I encourage you to see it because Papajumba makes me laugh and the part where Kevjumba speaks in mandarin cracks me up xDD)
         Aside from that, my studying is probably a little overboard. Most people think of studying as something you do to prepare for tests or quizzes or something of that kind.
         But for me, I feel like I have to read my leisure novel for 30 minutes, read my French book and/or listen to a disc for 20 minutes and read about the news on my phone for 10 or so minutes per day. Ideally.               That is a good hour spent on "studying". I see it as a compromise between something productive and something that I usually want to do. I see my leisure book as a way to improve my spelling, expand my vocabulary(this is soo difficult for me) and improve my grammar. French books and DVDs are used to improve my reading comprehension and listening and speaking skills. And the news, well...I'd like to know a little more about what my history teacher may refer to in class ahead of time so I'm not clueless during the discussion. I actually find some interesting things in the news too that I was never aware of, like the E.coli spread in meat across Canada from Alberta and/or Saskatchewan.
         This is getting very long so I think that I'll end it here. I'm going to write a post right after this to post on Thursday. Anyways, I still must admit that I'm still not so sure were all my time goes. GIVE ME A TIME MACHINE ALREADY.

Bloomed -> Blooming~
-Melanie

Me: Friends & Fitting In

         Hellooooo. "Another day, another dollar." -Spongebob Squarepants. Yeah....I don't know why. It just came to my head right now o-o
        Anyways, Friends. Just the sound of that word can mean alot. You either dread it or you love it. Most people love it. Myself? Ehhhh...not so much. Whenever I hear the word friends, I automatically think: I don't have any. That could be an understatement, but to me, it is quite relevant. I think that this is the one type of relationship that is not a solid black-and-white one. You could argue this with love but then again, you ask for your status to one another.
        But with friends though, unless you're in like 1st grade, you don't go up to someone and go like: "Can I be your friend? O-O" . I mean you could, but you wouldn't typically. It is something that more-so comes with the want to be around eachother. These 2 friends would want to hang out, talk to each other and pretty much everything.
         Now how do you distinguish this from an acquiantance? I've always wondered that...Well, more-so of a classmate instead of an acquiantance.(Still don't have a job, btw..-.-) There are some differences.
         I think that as classmates, you would have respect for one another. That is the least you could do. But then there is preference. Would you prefer to work with so-and-so over her because she's your "friend"? If the answer is yes, which is how I would answer, this person is making a friendly gesture.
        However, I see a friend as someone you hang out with anywhere. It doesn't matter if you don't go to the same school, aren't in the same class, live in different areas of the city, etc. The 2 friends will put in an effort for an arrangement together no matter what.
        Now the question is: Do I have any of  ^ those friends? My answer is no. I simply and truely believe that I don't. My closer friends from middle school? Gone. Have we met up outside of school during grade 9? Once, but it was like a 15 people group meet-up. (Btw, I don't speak to my bestie from middle school anymore. We once saw eachother while buying school supplies and the only words we exchanged were, "Hi.". Sad, isn't it?)
        The effort has just not been there. I admit, I don't do anything to change this. Do they? Nope. This just shows the extent of our friendship. If it was stronger, would we? Possibly. (I should really stop asking myself so many questions and then answering them...)
        I'm not saying that I don't have any friends, but that the friendships that I do have are very fragile. The friends that I've made at school are good. I find that my friends at school don't have much differentiating them from one another. They seem to be very one sided. I can't go into much detail when I'm talking to them about basketball simply because they wouldn't understand, nor do they care that much.
        As for fitting in, it may sound ridiculous, which is what I thought at first, but it is very much so present. I can honestly say that I do not fit in very well. I am in a small group of friends that don't have much of a clique. I think cliques are very stupid and unnecessary. I notice that people in cliques are unconsciously disregarding people like myself. In my school life, I can say that I don't think I fit in very much so. It is both a good and bad thing, but I think psychologically, I'm more-so focused on the bad side.
        I don't even know what I just wrote about up there, but it feels good to talk about "Friends" for once. As a side note, after missing so many days of blogging, I feel like I have a million things to talk about but don't have the time to type out.
        Before I go, one thing that I hope will encourage you guys is that you need to go live your life. You watch those stereotypical movies with happy endings, reality shows, vlogs, etc. Have you ever thought about doing something youself?
        Go live and create your own life and stop fantasizing over something that is not. LIVE, BREATHE, EXPERIENCE IT YOURSELF. I will never be a decent French speaker if I don't work on it. I need to work hard for a long period of time to get to where I want to be. It won't just come to you, you have to go to it. In the end, you'll look back and be amazed. That's one of the things that I hope will happen to me. Take these words from inspirational Melanie because there won't be many of them, hahaaa (; Gooooooo

Bloomed -> Blooming~
-Inspirational Melanie