Okay, so do you remember the post a wrote last week? It was about Temper-tantrums? Anyways, it hasn't been successful so far :$
From reading my "About Me" section, you know that I like to volunteer. It's pretty much my enjoyment for the day or week, since I can't do much on school days. However, sometimes it's not always fun. Some people may complain about this and say that I'm giving an excuse but I feel VERY stressed out. I feel like I'm coming upon a full and busy schedule because I think I get more homework and projects than most academic students. However, it varies within different schools. I normally volunteer for 2 hours everyday after school.
I'm not saying that volunteering is horrible because it's not but just sometimes I wish that I can skip a few days a week because it's so tiring. It's almost a drag because I know when I get home 2 hours later than most people do, I'll be extra tired. You know what happened yesterday?
So, normally I sit down for 30 minutes to eat and watch some tv and then I start my homework. Now, I sit for probably about an hour, which is WAYY too much and I eat ALOT. Sooo, I'm diverting from my routine. Yesterday, I feel asleep... . I already came home late from school, and I fall asleep, for an hour. Now add that's: 2 hours volunteering, 1 hour of sitting and eating and 1 hour of sleeping. THAT'S 4 HOURS!
And that leads to my point, above. Sometimes during the day, I feel soo stressed out. I get too tired to pay attention so I sit there and I get angry at myself! I'm one of those quieter people in the class but I'll talk alot to my friends soo my friends would say I'm more so talkative while others think of me as quiet. So, in my classes we have alot of class discussions. Most of the time, it's those louder and more-outgoing people who contribute more. Every time they say something, I feel like I've just been pushed lower in a hole because I feel so downgraded. Currently, I am probably never getting out of this hole because of how deep I've ended up.
That's how get angry at myself: I end up not contributing. Probably about 10 times in the past 2 weeks, did I want to say something. But you know what I did, I doubted myself. I think about it so much that I get nervous and my heart beats SOO FAST and then..........I end up not even raising my hand. I don't even try. I've wanted to but ended up putting it down when it was half-way up.
I really want the weekend to come so I can finally rest and try to adapt back to my old routines. This week is already a shortened week due to a 4-day-weekend, so I only have 4 days of school this week. PLUS, I had a late start this morning, which shortened the classes to an hour each, so really? I already have the schedule on my side but my drowsiness is not.
However, I will end this post with my more-so successful day than the last 2 days before. I spent around 35 minutes after I came home from 2 hours of volunteering and then I got straight to work. I missed Science class today due to the Math Contest I had to do. It was pretty tricky but I'll probably talk about it more in future posts. Then I practiced for my band testing tomorrow and now I just need to finish this blog and practice for my English presentation tomorrow.
I've thought about my blogging topics and schedules. I may miss some days due to homework but I will try my best to be active on posting. Also, I am beginnning to write my posts earlier than I post them and I don't think that will be done everyday. If something interesting happens a certain day, I may blog about it instead of a general "everyday talk" kind of thing.
Bloomed -> Blooming~
-Melanie
From reading my "About Me" section, you know that I like to volunteer. It's pretty much my enjoyment for the day or week, since I can't do much on school days. However, sometimes it's not always fun. Some people may complain about this and say that I'm giving an excuse but I feel VERY stressed out. I feel like I'm coming upon a full and busy schedule because I think I get more homework and projects than most academic students. However, it varies within different schools. I normally volunteer for 2 hours everyday after school.
I'm not saying that volunteering is horrible because it's not but just sometimes I wish that I can skip a few days a week because it's so tiring. It's almost a drag because I know when I get home 2 hours later than most people do, I'll be extra tired. You know what happened yesterday?
So, normally I sit down for 30 minutes to eat and watch some tv and then I start my homework. Now, I sit for probably about an hour, which is WAYY too much and I eat ALOT. Sooo, I'm diverting from my routine. Yesterday, I feel asleep... . I already came home late from school, and I fall asleep, for an hour. Now add that's: 2 hours volunteering, 1 hour of sitting and eating and 1 hour of sleeping. THAT'S 4 HOURS!
And that leads to my point, above. Sometimes during the day, I feel soo stressed out. I get too tired to pay attention so I sit there and I get angry at myself! I'm one of those quieter people in the class but I'll talk alot to my friends soo my friends would say I'm more so talkative while others think of me as quiet. So, in my classes we have alot of class discussions. Most of the time, it's those louder and more-outgoing people who contribute more. Every time they say something, I feel like I've just been pushed lower in a hole because I feel so downgraded. Currently, I am probably never getting out of this hole because of how deep I've ended up.
That's how get angry at myself: I end up not contributing. Probably about 10 times in the past 2 weeks, did I want to say something. But you know what I did, I doubted myself. I think about it so much that I get nervous and my heart beats SOO FAST and then..........I end up not even raising my hand. I don't even try. I've wanted to but ended up putting it down when it was half-way up.
I really want the weekend to come so I can finally rest and try to adapt back to my old routines. This week is already a shortened week due to a 4-day-weekend, so I only have 4 days of school this week. PLUS, I had a late start this morning, which shortened the classes to an hour each, so really? I already have the schedule on my side but my drowsiness is not.
However, I will end this post with my more-so successful day than the last 2 days before. I spent around 35 minutes after I came home from 2 hours of volunteering and then I got straight to work. I missed Science class today due to the Math Contest I had to do. It was pretty tricky but I'll probably talk about it more in future posts. Then I practiced for my band testing tomorrow and now I just need to finish this blog and practice for my English presentation tomorrow.
I've thought about my blogging topics and schedules. I may miss some days due to homework but I will try my best to be active on posting. Also, I am beginnning to write my posts earlier than I post them and I don't think that will be done everyday. If something interesting happens a certain day, I may blog about it instead of a general "everyday talk" kind of thing.
-Melanie
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