Hellooooo. "Another day, another dollar." -Spongebob Squarepants. Yeah....I don't know why. It just came to my head right now o-o
Anyways, Friends. Just the sound of that word can mean alot. You either dread it or you love it. Most people love it. Myself? Ehhhh...not so much. Whenever I hear the word friends, I automatically think: I don't have any. That could be an understatement, but to me, it is quite relevant. I think that this is the one type of relationship that is not a solid black-and-white one. You could argue this with love but then again, you ask for your status to one another.
But with friends though, unless you're in like 1st grade, you don't go up to someone and go like: "Can I be your friend? O-O" . I mean you could, but you wouldn't typically. It is something that more-so comes with the want to be around eachother. These 2 friends would want to hang out, talk to each other and pretty much everything.
Now how do you distinguish this from an acquiantance? I've always wondered that...Well, more-so of a classmate instead of an acquiantance.(Still don't have a job, btw..-.-) There are some differences.
I think that as classmates, you would have respect for one another. That is the least you could do. But then there is preference. Would you prefer to work with so-and-so over her because she's your "friend"? If the answer is yes, which is how I would answer, this person is making a friendly gesture.
However, I see a friend as someone you hang out with anywhere. It doesn't matter if you don't go to the same school, aren't in the same class, live in different areas of the city, etc. The 2 friends will put in an effort for an arrangement together no matter what.
Now the question is: Do I have any of ^ those friends? My answer is no. I simply and truely believe that I don't. My closer friends from middle school? Gone. Have we met up outside of school during grade 9? Once, but it was like a 15 people group meet-up. (Btw, I don't speak to my bestie from middle school anymore. We once saw eachother while buying school supplies and the only words we exchanged were, "Hi.". Sad, isn't it?)
The effort has just not been there. I admit, I don't do anything to change this. Do they? Nope. This just shows the extent of our friendship. If it was stronger, would we? Possibly. (I should really stop asking myself so many questions and then answering them...)
I'm not saying that I don't have any friends, but that the friendships that I do have are very fragile. The friends that I've made at school are good. I find that my friends at school don't have much differentiating them from one another. They seem to be very one sided. I can't go into much detail when I'm talking to them about basketball simply because they wouldn't understand, nor do they care that much.
As for fitting in, it may sound ridiculous, which is what I thought at first, but it is very much so present. I can honestly say that I do not fit in very well. I am in a small group of friends that don't have much of a clique. I think cliques are very stupid and unnecessary. I notice that people in cliques are unconsciously disregarding people like myself. In my school life, I can say that I don't think I fit in very much so. It is both a good and bad thing, but I think psychologically, I'm more-so focused on the bad side.
I don't even know what I just wrote about up there, but it feels good to talk about "Friends" for once. As a side note, after missing so many days of blogging, I feel like I have a million things to talk about but don't have the time to type out.
Before I go, one thing that I hope will encourage you guys is that you need to go live your life. You watch those stereotypical movies with happy endings, reality shows, vlogs, etc. Have you ever thought about doing something youself?
Go live and create your own life and stop fantasizing over something that is not. LIVE, BREATHE, EXPERIENCE IT YOURSELF. I will never be a decent French speaker if I don't work on it. I need to work hard for a long period of time to get to where I want to be. It won't just come to you, you have to go to it. In the end, you'll look back and be amazed. That's one of the things that I hope will happen to me. Take these words from inspirational Melanie because there won't be many of them, hahaaa (; Gooooooo
Bloomed -> Blooming~
-Inspirational Melanie
Anyways, Friends. Just the sound of that word can mean alot. You either dread it or you love it. Most people love it. Myself? Ehhhh...not so much. Whenever I hear the word friends, I automatically think: I don't have any. That could be an understatement, but to me, it is quite relevant. I think that this is the one type of relationship that is not a solid black-and-white one. You could argue this with love but then again, you ask for your status to one another.
But with friends though, unless you're in like 1st grade, you don't go up to someone and go like: "Can I be your friend? O-O" . I mean you could, but you wouldn't typically. It is something that more-so comes with the want to be around eachother. These 2 friends would want to hang out, talk to each other and pretty much everything.
Now how do you distinguish this from an acquiantance? I've always wondered that...Well, more-so of a classmate instead of an acquiantance.(Still don't have a job, btw..-.-) There are some differences.
I think that as classmates, you would have respect for one another. That is the least you could do. But then there is preference. Would you prefer to work with so-and-so over her because she's your "friend"? If the answer is yes, which is how I would answer, this person is making a friendly gesture.
However, I see a friend as someone you hang out with anywhere. It doesn't matter if you don't go to the same school, aren't in the same class, live in different areas of the city, etc. The 2 friends will put in an effort for an arrangement together no matter what.
Now the question is: Do I have any of ^ those friends? My answer is no. I simply and truely believe that I don't. My closer friends from middle school? Gone. Have we met up outside of school during grade 9? Once, but it was like a 15 people group meet-up. (Btw, I don't speak to my bestie from middle school anymore. We once saw eachother while buying school supplies and the only words we exchanged were, "Hi.". Sad, isn't it?)
The effort has just not been there. I admit, I don't do anything to change this. Do they? Nope. This just shows the extent of our friendship. If it was stronger, would we? Possibly. (I should really stop asking myself so many questions and then answering them...)
I'm not saying that I don't have any friends, but that the friendships that I do have are very fragile. The friends that I've made at school are good. I find that my friends at school don't have much differentiating them from one another. They seem to be very one sided. I can't go into much detail when I'm talking to them about basketball simply because they wouldn't understand, nor do they care that much.
As for fitting in, it may sound ridiculous, which is what I thought at first, but it is very much so present. I can honestly say that I do not fit in very well. I am in a small group of friends that don't have much of a clique. I think cliques are very stupid and unnecessary. I notice that people in cliques are unconsciously disregarding people like myself. In my school life, I can say that I don't think I fit in very much so. It is both a good and bad thing, but I think psychologically, I'm more-so focused on the bad side.
I don't even know what I just wrote about up there, but it feels good to talk about "Friends" for once. As a side note, after missing so many days of blogging, I feel like I have a million things to talk about but don't have the time to type out.
Before I go, one thing that I hope will encourage you guys is that you need to go live your life. You watch those stereotypical movies with happy endings, reality shows, vlogs, etc. Have you ever thought about doing something youself?
Go live and create your own life and stop fantasizing over something that is not. LIVE, BREATHE, EXPERIENCE IT YOURSELF. I will never be a decent French speaker if I don't work on it. I need to work hard for a long period of time to get to where I want to be. It won't just come to you, you have to go to it. In the end, you'll look back and be amazed. That's one of the things that I hope will happen to me. Take these words from inspirational Melanie because there won't be many of them, hahaaa (; Gooooooo
-Inspirational Melanie
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